Sometimes I think I picked the wrong friends. Some of them know I have a Da, but never check it out. So I should be fine saying this stuff, but if not then fuck it.Part of me is hoping they do see this
Me and my friends went through a lot of drama about stupid stuff, then everything was chill. However as of recently(last school year) they've grown more and more, to quote them, "derpy". They've fallen prey to memes and bring the stupidity into real life and act so weird it's getting awkward hanging out with them. I fucking love memes, I love laughing at memes, I love the internet, but I like to think I act normal and in public very reserved. Honestly they aren't stupid, they get good grades and all that, but the way they have fun...
I remember a thought I had back in freshmen year(now a senior). "I'd rather not have friends than hang out with idiots". That thought is ringing in my mind. I don't know, I just don't know what happened to them. They were never this bad. Here's a taste "Bahhht. Thailand kuk. Thailand men will rape your ass. Anal rape. Ba faka you. Scrub. Russian vodkaaa, something about Russian sex and burning vodka. EEEEEEYYYYYY. FUCKIN LULZ #RANDOM
& VULGAR" Then some random blurts after saying something vulgar and appalling hand motions of a dick going in a whole and random thrusts going UGH. Oh and there's frequent mocking of how the "ghetto" speaks and smokes weed and chews. From the way they speak to the way they type it's just. Bad.
I've been trying to go along, but I just don't know if I'm making the right choices. Why now? Why in Junior year and going into Senior year? To leave a group of high school friends now would be just bad. I feel like I shouldn't leave, but fuck. See I said but fuck then they would go off on tangents of butt fucking.
Oh and I can tell not the entire group is that into it. Our group consists of a solid 9 people(including me). Use to be 10, but ever since the drama thing he left. And one isn't part of the group really, but hangs out with some of the group very often. 3 or 4 of them are the main sources of stupid. About 3 of them go along with it too, but not always so enthusiastically. One of them refuses mostly, but doesn't do so openly. I really have to wonder if the 3 or 4 main sources notices this, but judging from how they act in public they really don't care.
My questionable friend making isn't the only thing I feel I really messed up. Ah, but that's all I'll say. Just wanted to get that off my chest because I have no one to talk to about this stuff. Honestly don't know what happened to them...